Last One Standing

"I'm gonna be the last one standing, fighting for something much bigger than me..."
These are the words to a Mercy Me song that I heard on the way to school this morning. So many people have offered encouraging words over the past few days, but the reoccurring theme has been to stay in the ring and fight.
I am going through Max Lucado's Facing Your Giants with my devotion group at school on Wednesday mornings and I was reminded of that theme again as I read Chapter 1 to them this morning. David wasn't perfect...he messed up...alot, but God still called him a man after his own heart. (Acts 13:22)
I know that I'm not perfect...I'm not ever going to be perfect. I also know that I love God and He loves me enough to look past my imperfection and see the real me - the me that He designed me to be.
I also realize now, after much affirmation, that because I am doing what I feel God has called me to do, that I am going to receive what Barry calls "hate mail..." I'm just going to try to take the advice of a friend and throw it away from now on.
Thanks for the words of encouragement and advice!
Peace!

Chasing me

I have been struggling ever since I got that anonymous bible verse in my box at school. I have started to question myself about everything. I just feel like I don't really know what I'm doing anymore or who I'm really doing it for.
I love God and there is no doubt in my mind that he came into my heart and saved my life in February 2006. I don't want to do or say anything that would ever take glory and honor away from my Heavenly Father. I'm really confused and scaired.
Last night, I fought with a demon. All night long, he chased me and he has begun to make me question my every word and deed.
Its crazy how the devil can use God's word to get to me...
Right now, I need prayer,but I'm afraid to ask for it because I don't want to draw attention to myself and away from God. I don't really know what to do, except to continue to pray that God will help me through this.